Monday, 17 September 2012

Day 313 - New Beginnings

What an eventful few weeks!

First of all, hello everyone, it's been a while since I graced you all with my blogging, so here I am.

I hope we all got what we were hoping for in exams, be them A2s, ASs (ASes? either way, it looks like I'm talking about bums.) or GCSEs or BTECs or Diplomas, or Apprenticeships, and so on. I hope you all did as well as, or near enough to as well as you were hoping or needed. From what I can gather from most people, I have some very happy friends going to where they want to be, or are at least on track for new beginnings. I certainly did as well as I hoped, getting into Southampton University to do my degree in International Law :)

Needless to say of course, I am absolutely ridiculously excited to go! As are, I'm sure, many of those who are reading this now, and, I think it's going to be such an exciting and great time of my life, I just, yeah. I'm buzzing! But, of course, what with moving away and moving out, there are going to be those people, places and memories that we leave behind, and, it's rather bitter-sweet really.

So, to all you people of Wokingham, my beautiful little hometown, I'm going to miss you all so much! I know we'll all be coming back at Christmas,  but, yes, I'll keep this short.

Here's to new beginnings, new adventures, new people and new memories, and thank you for all the memories I made with you all I'll cherish long into the future.


Tuesday, 24 July 2012

Day 312 - Thoughts of an Englishman in America

Alas, with only one full day remaining in the US of A, I thought now would be a great time to have a blog. As it stands, I'm sitting in the hotel lobby, the baseball is on my lil' screen at my part of the bar, and I'm surrounded by Americans.

Americans. What is there to say about them that hasn't been said before?! They're wonderful. First of all, they're all so damn nice! I've literally never known a race of people (y'know, because I know a lot of difference races as a whole..) be so.. polite! It's wonderful. They're wonderful. More than that, they're so cute, especially when it comes to how.. like. Innocent they are. Now, I know that innocent is hardly a word many use to describe the Americans, but, as an English person, spending my days amongst them, it's like, they're such a young culture! Y'know, they're still making their mistakes and if anything, I feel like a proud godparent of these people! They're loud and a little bit unsubtle but bless them! They don't know any better!

Subtlty, however, is something that the Americans REALLY don't get. When I think back to life in England, when it comes to conversation, advertising, food, service, anything like that, it all seems so.. quiet and subdued. I've never known anywhere or anything be -so- in your face as America is. It's literally 24/7 noise, lights, adverts, shouting and a total lack of.. tact. But it's amazing! When I first arrived, I was waking up at 4am because of jet lag, and before going to the gym in the morning, I'd look out over LA and see traffic and cars and it could have been any time in the day, it was just happening!

Speaking of cars, 90% of adverts are for cars out here. Seriously, I'm not joking, Honda, Mazda, Hyundai and Nissan, those cars, the same adverts constantly. And my God, the American TV they show those adverts on is... it's fucking awful. Even the news is full of explosions and loud noises and unlike British TV, they introduce a news story and leave the conclusion to the story on a cliffhanger, and then you have to sit 5 minutes through adverts before you get to know where the kidnapper hid the body, or where Michael Jackson's mother is, or what the new tax in San Diego is on! (Sugarry drinks, by the way..)

I did at least have the pleasure of sitting through America's Got Talent, which was simply awful. After every act, adverts. Even the judges were drinking drinks with the labels facing the camera JUST FOR A BIT MORE MONEY! Omgosh, it's non-stop you wouldn't believe it. Adverts even every mile on the motorways which are literally concrete deathtraps. The driving out here, is manic. There's no other word, it's simply mental.

Of course, it wouldn't be a post on American culture (lol, oxymoron?) if I didn't mention food. And my word, there's so much of it. Every other establishment on every road out here does food. It's everywhere. But don't get me wrong, it's incredible. To be fair to them, they know how to cook, and, although the diet isn't GREATLY varied, quite a few times out here, we've gone for steak, in a steakhouse just opposite our hotel, and it is without doubt the best steak I've ever eaten bar none. It doesn't even taste like steak, it tastes like heaven. Nom. But, yeah. Luckily I've done enough walking and tennis to balance out some of the calories.

And all that walking has been in the huge list of things I've done and seen while being out here. California really is as amazing as they say. When I think to what I'll have packed into this short time, I'm amazed. I've visited Warner Brothers Studios where I've sat on the set of FRIENDS and The Big Bang Theory, seen a heap of original costumes and props and sets, seen 6 OSCARS, visited Universal Studios where I've seen some of the most classic sets from any film and TV show, like War of the Worlds, and the Grinch, and the set of Lady GaGa's 'Judas' video,

Also visited Disney and ridden enough rides in Disney, Universal Studios and Knottsberry Farm to last a lifetime! But to top all of that, the tour of California itself was amazing. I've walked up and down the Walk of Fame, seen the Kodak Theatre, the Hollywood Bowl, Venice Beach (where I got a contact high from the sheer amount of weed that was being smoked) driven through Beverly Hills, seen the Hollywood sign, Downton LA, and it's honestly been mindblowing. Plus the quality time I've spent with my family as our last proper family holiday before leaving for University has been really special.

But, my word I miss England! I miss proper tea, English news and English TV, my bedroom, my bed, my bathroom, my phone, the fact that all my beautiful wonderful friends are just, like a few moments away and I'm so looking forward to coming back and seeing you all again! That and drinking, Jesus, 10 days not being legally able to buy a drink is a shock to the system, my liver doesn't know what to do with itself!

Anyway, yes, I'll stop there, I promise. But, if you ever get the chance, come and visit LA. It's incredible. There's not a single place like it.

Until I see you all again, peace and love.

Tuesday, 12 June 2012

Day 311 - Bigots

Comments, on an article about the Church of England attacking the plans to legalise gay marriage: 
  • I condemn it because it is a perversion! I am a Christian and homosexuals to use the correct term Gay means to be happy! So homosexuals have no right to force others to accept their sorded life style and I sincerely hope that all Christian denominations will boycott homosexual partnerships as to call it marriage is shouting in the face of God!
  • What a recipe for the end of mankind. oh to be gay. the end would be sooner for all. gays would cause the end of life as we know it.
  • It's not marriage they need it's counselling. Shouldn't we be looking at ways to correct this faulty gene and eradicate the problem the problem from our society
  • We need science to come up with a cure for gays.......i can think of one right away.
  • Only gays think it is normal to be abnormal. it is not moral it is immoral. marry the church in gods heaven, not your brother to your brother.
  • gay men are subhuman and should be treated as such.rope and a tree
  • It's not marriage they need it's counselling. Shouldn't we be looking for a way to correct this faulty gene and eradicate this scourge of society
  • this is just sick,
  • Homosexuality is a perversion and a mental sickness, and is totally against Gods design of how we should be and the church has to stand for Godly truth first and formost instead of ungodly and demonic lies.
  • May gods curse be upon them all,i feel sick when i think about this.
  • The definition of marriage in the dictionary is the union of one man and one woman. So homosexuals and lesbians should NOT be allowed to be married . Or are the government going to re-write the dictionary.
  • Why should the views and beliefs of the gay minority be imposed on the majority of British people who oppose gay marriage? Is it because this minority is politically activist and the government and society are giving in to the pressure? Most people I talk to oppose gay marriage but unfortunately the few that speak up support it and everyone thinks that this is how the majority thinks.
  •  However, when the sordid affair attempts to be legitimised, in a house of worship which categorically stipulates the act of homosexuality is sinful, it becomes nothing more than a mockery to the said institution and those wishing to be ‘accepted’ by them.
  • Sodomy or the act of buggary is one of grave depravity and is against natural,moral and spiritual law.Often described as an english disease it is hugely offensive and disgusting to the majority of God fearing people.The bible makes it explicitly clear that it is condemned by God as an abomination and is a sin hated by God out of all sins.To use the law of a land to try and drive a wedge between man and his faith will lead to the law of the land being ignored over the law of God and thus will start a slippery slope to total inssurection against the state of the land.One wonders in what direction the government intends heading if it brings in laws rejected naturally by the vast and overwhelming majority.People that have an inclination to homosexuality are called to live lives of chastity and celibacy same as people who have an inclination towards paedophilia.Look what damage to society homosexuality amoungst less than 1% of catholic priests caused.It leads to a complete breakdown of morals and is highly promiscuos ,paedophillicand unsatiable in its liberalism run riot................When we are faced with a choice of following our faith given to us by our creator or following a temporary collection of thieving, erring people in government with laughable allusions to grandeur then we will make our choice and live in peace with God.The state will then also have become undemocratic and will rather be a militant atheistic dictatorship akin to hitler,stalin,marx or the other admirations of liberalism.I dare say it will end up the same way too.One lesson that these liberally, rudderless governments seem to have forgotten is that as they come and go the church that they try to supress grows vigorously under persecution.The human spirit is one of free will and rejects any indoctrination except the truth which it naturally seeks and turns to by the spirit of God in us.
  • The question should be.. What is the Point of Homosexual Behavior.? If as is been we are now being Browbeaten into thinking.. That Sexual Relaions between Two Men, and Two women is normal. What is the Point of Men and Women having Sexual Relation.?
    I suppose what we are to forget all about is Reproduction of the Specie. The Thing that's to speak it's Name.
  • These "People" are sad deep down...never really fulfilled, sure they cavort, and prance..but they are never truly happy..
  • If there`s one thing worse than same sex marriage as opposed to civil partnership it`s the thought of fostered or adopted children being raised by two mothers or two fathers. What an insidious situation to force on innocent and and normally inclined children. Of course the Church is correct in refusing to go down this deplorable smacks of the decadence of the Roman Empire and look what happened to that!
  •  fills me with revulsion, How our government can condone this action is beyond me !
  • Some people are disgustingly evil. If they want to indulge in their sinful cravings, then why are they announcing to the whole world about it and insulting the Church? Marraige is for a man and a woman! Some people have a twisted mentality!
  • Cant understand why these gays would want a marriage in a church anyway. The church is to do with Christianity so they cant be Christian so whats the point of getting married in a church
  • Homosexuality is a disorder. End of.
  • Religion and Gays! Two of the worse creations on Earth.
  • I dont care what gays do....but I can't fathom why they feel the need to parade their sexuality & shove it in peoples faces. Why cant they live & let live? If the CofE doesn't want to conduct marriage services for them, so what? Why demand that everyone change to suit a small minority. A bit intolerant if you ask me
  • Sick country, led by sick politicians, voted for by sick morons!!!
  • Maybe we can all learn a lesson from Islam. They would never let filthy dirty gay marriages happen.
  • i wonder how long it will be before we are on the slippery slope to making homosexuality compulsory?
  • Before this debate really gets going, remember, if you disagree with gay marriage, according to the socialists and libtards, you are a homophobic, racist, little Englander, right wing nazi I know decent people find buggery abhorrant but this will not stop the unwashed, leftwing filth from making out it's actually normal.
  • Church of England is a joke. It should condemn homosexuality as a sin and call its followers to fight homosexual ideology everywhere. This is a war against society. Few sick people with money harassing nations around the world

I mean, should I continue? 

So long to any ounce of respect I have for the church.

Fuck humanity. Fuck it, because you know what, it's not worth it.

I have my friends and I have my family. And that's all I need.

I will die, and when I do, there will be nothing. This is my life, and this is my only shot at it. 

Oh, I cannot wait until the day where people wise up.


Saturday, 26 May 2012

Day 310 - Identity

It's one of life's biggest clich├ęs, that our whole reason for existing is to 'find who we are'.

But what does that mean? What is our identity, and more to the point, what does it mean to find who you are?

Before I go on, of course, all that I say here is my opinion, I'm not going to say any of this as fact, this is just what I think, what I feel, and what I think people might be interested in reading!

I'm gonna start the controversy, as perhaps I always do, with the wonderful world of Twitter, and the minefield that is 'popularity'. Those who tend to have the most followers, of screaming hipsters flocking at their feet, are the teenage guys with no shirt on, piercings and meaningless tattoos, who put 'alternative' things in their bio in the desperate attempt for people to think they're cool. And, y'know what, perhaps in the world of Twitter, they are. But, argh, do you not see how meaningless it all is? The amount of Facebook friends you have, your Twitter followers, whatever, in the grand scheme of things, what is it?

You don't find yourself by complaining online about how unfair or ironic life is. And, yes, it might amuse me, and I might scream: "I thought I was the only one!" - alas, beyond that short burst of recognisability, and perhaps acceptance in non-conformity, there is nothing.

Since I've turned 18 especially, I like to think that I have experienced a lot more of the world than I ever thought I would do, and I've met people I'd never thought I'd meet, and I've befriended the people, who, perhaps I wouldn't ever dream of befriending before, but, for some reason, I see that I am accepted with those people. And those individuals who stick two fingers up to whatever anybody else thinks and says "Fuck the world, you're my friend. And I love you." - these people, they are who I live for, and to be that person to somebody else, is a big part of that.

So y'know, take a risk. Because you are a lot more likely to discover stuff about yourself you never even knew existed if you do. I'm not saying playing it safe doesn't have its merits, because it does, but don't be frightened by the massive possibilities that you have. I'd like to think that if I hadn't taken some of the risks or decisions that I have, I certainly wouldn't be where I am today. And I'm grateful for it.

Say 'fuck it', meet new people, talk to strangers, start an argument, stir things up. Visit new places and experience new things and make memories that you'll never forget, I don't even know, spend too much money, drink too much, vote, cause a debate, read a book, learn a language, place a bet, apply for a job, write a poem or sing a song, or take up a sport or whatever you can to shake things up a bit! You'll never find yourself unless you're willing to go out there and look.

So take a deep breath, and even if it's nothing drastic, every choice is one step closer to achieving what it is you want to achieve.

And I'm certainly not there yet, I still fear making the wrong decision, and regret making some of the decisions, but I'm learning that it doesn't matter, because that's what life is about!

There's a poster in my room, and it reads:
"The world existed for millions of years before you, and will exist for millions of years when you're gone. Your window is about 80 years, so you better enjoy it and experience it. You had, and will have a very long time to chill out, so grab onto this chance and use it as best you can."
I don't want to grow old with regrets of things I never did. I'd much rather have the regrets of things I took a chance on, even if it went wrong.


Tuesday, 17 April 2012

Day 309 - Me.

I'm going to regret writing this, and I'm going to regret publishing it even more.

Most people who read this blog, will, by now, know who I am.

For those of you who don't, I'm Thomas Joy, and I'm 18.

When I think about what I want from life, I suppose, along with everyone else, I want success, happiness and a long life, and so on. But when I think about the present, I wonder what it is I want out of tomorrow? And the day after? And what did I want from yesterday?

I'm not the easiest person to get on with, I know this! I'm a pain in the arse, I talk to much, usually about myself to be fair, and I have an unending talent to push people away.

But ultimately, above all else, it's not that I want people to like me, so much, as respect me enough to put up with me. I've written before about my rejection of the importance of image, and in all honesty, y'know, I'm not the thinnest guy, nor the most attractive, definitely not the coolest, my feet are too big and my eyes can't decide what colour they want to be. My taste in music is questionable to say the least, as is my taste in hobbies.

I'm an all right pianist, I'm no virtuoso by any means. And my composing? In all honesty, it's kinda bland. Mediocre, certainly. Musically, it's nothing special. I like to try and big up what I do, I suppose, because it's what I take the most pride in, though, when I think about it, I don't know why.

What I'm trying to get at here, is just a matter of respect. I don't expect everyone to like me, frankly, I don't think I'd like myself! But don't mess me around. If there's one thing I can't abide, it's being lied to. If you don't like me, if I've done something wrong then have the goddamn fucking courage to tell me. I'd rather argue and feel like I can defend myself than be subject to disdain.

For those of you who don't know, I suppose now is as best time to tell any of you, in the hope that I can help, if ever it's needed. A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Bipolar, manic depression. I cannot begin to describe how difficult it's been to fight, and in all honestly, I've not always won. But, I'm having hospital treatment for it, in the desperate hope I can be a stronger person. With that, earlier this year, I was diagnosed with OCD. Something I had always joked about, but never actually considered seriously.

When people say stupid things like 'oh I'm so depressed', no offence, but, you have no idea. Depression is not an emotion, it's not a thing that comes and goes trivially. It's a life-long battle that I, and so many others have to face day in, day out. And this blog post, this blog itself is an outlet for that. The OCD is fairly under control most of the time, but, there are times when I freak out. If you've ever been with me, I can't walk on the right of someone if there's nobody on my right-hand side, I'm obsessive about hand washing, I check pockets obsessively, yes, I know.

And frankly, I'm not asking you to like me. All I'm asking is that you don't kick me down all the time. You don't mess me around because I'll always be there to forgive you, y'know what? I won't. Think about what you say before you say it, yeah? I have the same thoughts and feelings and hopes and dreams as everyone else. Just because I put on a brave face and laugh off the insults, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

I've only been alive 18 years. But I've met and known some incredible people, people who have touched and shaped my life more than they can begin to imagine, and I'll forever be incredible grateful to them.

And I'm sorry about the rant, but, I guess this all just, needed to be written.

Thank You all, for understanding, at least.

Sunday, 15 April 2012

Day 308 - Justin Bieber

I'm going to keep this as impartial as I can.

You should know by now, that I don't like Justin Bieber.

Having said that, and being on Twitter quite regularly, I thought, OK, y'know what. Let's think about this.
The two fanbases constantly warring with one another are 1Direction's 'Directioners' and Bieber's 'Beliebers'. They are constantly trying to get things trending over each other, usually pathetic things, like '#DirectionersRespect1D' or 'BieberMakesMeWet'. Which is slightly awkward.

However, a few days ago, I saw this article on Digital Spy:

To quote: 
"By the end of the day, it got a bit too scary. Random girls were abusing me on Facebook. Girls were calling the radio station and giving me s**t. 

"Mothers even called me in tears, demanding to know if I knew where One Direction were because their daughters wanted to meet them.
So, I thought, OK, y'know what. Maybe Bieber isn't as bad as I first thought. To be fair, he evidently has SOME talent, being spotted through YouTube, working his way to fame, and being committed to the cause. He does at least play an instrument, and while he (or his music) might not be my cup of tea, I thought, OK, he does a considerable amount of charity work, and is very suited to his market of teenage girls.

One Direction on the other hand, were just, not. They're autotuned to death, and are, well. Their entire act is based around their image, and again, catering for a very predictable market, screaming young fangirls. Fair play, but, if you're gonna be successful in the music industry, I feel it only right you have a certain degree of talent. And to be honest, none of the members of 1D are actually *that* talented. They were flung together by a man using them for profit, and once they've run aground, the next band'll be along to sing about cute dates and girl and what romantic the boys are. 

So, at this point, all is going well for Bieber in my eyes.

Until Today.

Mr Bieber gave an interview to 'Rolling Stone' Magazine.

To quote:
He isn't sure what political party he'd support if he was old enough to vote. "I'm not sure about the parties," Bieber says. "But whatever they have in Korea, that's bad."
OK. So he identifies communism (well, no, he doesn't, he's half aware of what's going on around him) as a force for bad.

He does have a solid opinion on abortion. "I really don't believe in abortion," Bieber says. "It's like killing a baby."

Not too bad, yet?
How about in cases of rape? "Um. Well, I think that's really sad, but everything happens for a reason. I don't know how that would be a reason.
There it is guys, Justin Bieber has said that 'even rape happens for a reason'My estimations of him, are once again, 0. What a moronic kid. He's 18, he's an adult. He could vote for government, he's one of the most influential planet, and yet, he drives an imitation Batmobile and claims rape happens for a reason.

What an absolute child. I despair.

That's all. Before I get too angry.


Friday, 6 April 2012

Day 307 - Beauty


So at the moment, it looks like I'm managing to blog every 2 days or so? Which isn't that bad actually. I'm keeping up with some structure I suppose.

I saw a status on Facebook this morning, and, I thought I'd just share it with you all.

"Can everyone please stop 'liking' pictures with captions like "she's beautiful just the way she is" or "he fought for our country therefore he deserves our likes" - the person who posted it clearly just wants attention and they don't really give a shit. If you want to help veterans or disabled people - volunteer or give money to a fucking charity."
And, the biggest applause to what was said.

A very good point is made, though. I suppose you could argue that you're raising awareness for a cause, such as veteran soldiers, or cancer charities, or disability charities, but by clicking 'like', are you really showing your respect? Hmm. Perhaps. Anyway, that's something for you to ponder on!

Now, for those internet-savvy among you, you may have come across Samantha Brick in the past few days. For those of you who haven't, Samantha Brick is probably the most reviled woman on the internet at the moment. Basically, she wrote an article in the Daily Mail saying how she was hated by other women because she was 'so beautiful'.

You can read the article here:

Now, if after reading that, you're not too angry to read yet more of her bullshit.. she published another article a few days later:

Needless to say, Mrs Brick had pretty much been trending on Twitter for a good few days straight... and some of her more.. shady characteristics came to light. This from The Telegraph:

Minimal reaction, if any, was provoked by the article in which she revealed her husband had locked her in their car until she agreed to change into an outfit he deemed appropriate. The admission, in another piece, that she was “too scared of gaining weight to consider getting pregnant” became proverbial fish and chip paper.Twitter was not troubled by her revelation that she had spent €30,000 on psychics, or that she had divorced her first husband on the advice of one. Nor did it seem particularly inflamed by the news that her second husband had threatened to divorce her if she ever got fat.
Yet, I think this asks an important question. Just what IS beauty? Is it only skin deep? Is it in the eye of the beholder? The answer? Well. Sort of, I don't have one. I suppose the idea of beauty is something open to interpretation to different people. There too lies a significant point, I believe there's a difference between being beautiful and being attractive.

Google Beautiful - Of a very high standard; fair, nice.
Google Attractive - Appealing to look at; sexually alluring.

And I think there's the difference. Sexual attractiveness is, by and large, skin deep. But beauty is not. Beauty takes into account someone's personality, who they are, their soul, not just their appearance.

God knows I have a few Facebook friends who think that they are absolutely God's aesthetic gift to humanity, but that's... well, that's about it. They're totally void of a personality and base their entire life on maintaining a certain image. Like, it's fair play if you wanna look good, I think we all do! But.. when one's image comes before one's person, then I think that's the problem.

I'm not saying that you can't be beautiful AND attractive, because you can, and I know people who ARE very attractive and very lovely! I think, really, we all just need to put this obsession over image behind us. It's no wonder that a lot of girls, from what I've heard, feel the constant need to be so attractive to guys when there remains a certain stereotype of teenage guys (who, are very much real!) who demand such standards.

And, if I'm honest with you girls, I don't know who of you will be reading this, but, I overheard a conversation between 3 guys at school the other day, Year 13 Students at the Forest, who, I won't name.. but it went something like this:

"Ahh yeah, they all think they're fit, but they're not!" - "The only reason guys fuck [her] is because [she's] so desperate, tell her she's fit and she'll let you fuck her."

No word of a lie, people I know are being talked about like that, yet they honestly believe that these boys think they're attractive.

I'm not naming names, and you can ask me all you like, but, it's also not the first time I've heard a conversation like that.

Anyway, on that note, I think I'll stop. I've said my part.


Wednesday, 4 April 2012

Day 306 - Say WHAAAT?!

If I was a sassy black lady, this would be my catchphrase: YouTube Link

But, when all is said and done, I'm not a sassy black lady. I'm a middle-class white kid.

I dunno if any of you are YouTubers, but Glozell, is like, who I want to be.

This is her doing the Cinnamon Challenge:


So my post yesterday certainly ruffled a few feathers in the internet communities to which I posted the link! I mean, overall, it was positive. People seemed to get what I was on about, but there were a few subtle tweets that I read that was like.. yeah, you're not kidding anyone. I know you mean me.

On the other hand, on the subject of hipsters, hipsters who are nice, who talk to you and can take a joke, I LIKE YOU. You are my lovely hipsters and they make the internet sparkle.

And not like, Edward Cullen sparkle, there are the Twilight hipsters who I will not make allowances for.

Totally just been distracted by the phone and, now I've lost my train of thought.. arghhh.

Has anybody else been watching 'The Voice' on BBC1? What do you think of it? I love it! I LOVE it! So much better than any of Cowell's crap on ITV.. plus, so much talent. :)

What else? OH! I went to see Sweeney Todd in London on Monday, and my GOD! What an incredible show, I had shivers throughout it all, an incredible, if not belated, 18th birthday present; I loved it. So thank you mummy and daddy. I'm posting this before I go and see Dark Dark Dark at Bush Hall in London tonight with Richard, and safe to say, I'm super excited; I booked these tickets months ago, and I've been listening to their music for months, and it's like. I'M GOING TO SEE THEM! :'D

I also, very luckily, got given an organ! I know, not a sentence you'll read every day, and nor am I talking about a biological organ, but a musical organ...
A friend of a friend's dad was needing to get rid of it, and was going to put it on eBay, and, fortunately, someone had heard of me, and my music and they asked if I wanted it! Needless to say, I jumped at the chance, and I'm so glad I did!

Sorry, this post has been a bit all over the place... don't despair, I'll be back to ranting soon.

I love how people have sort of flocked back to my blog as I've started writing again! You're all so lovely.

Here, have an asterisk:


On a quick note, as I apologise for the sheer shoddyness of this post, go read Robyn's blog - LINK


Tuesday, 3 April 2012

Day 305 - Hipster Bashing

Ahh! Tumblr, home of the hipster.

Full of random cupcakes, Starbucks, topless women biting their lips and desperate pleas for attention. And a hefty chunk of instagram photos chucked in for good measure.

OH! What's that? You're all so alternative? Gosh, yes. You must really be able to express your individuality by being the same as the other thousands of users. Pfft.

The irony? Being alternative is probably the most mainstream thing going at the moment! Why does everyone need to PROVE they're different? If you're different, if you're quirky, then that'll show on its own, you don't need to prove anything to anyone. And y'know what, wearing chinos, low-cut tops and fake nerd glasses doesn't make you alternative, or unique, or whatever else you're trying to prove, it makes you as mainstream as every other lost cause trying to prove how different they are!

Y'know what? I'm a little bit different I suppose. Yeah, I enjoy the theatre, classical music, art galleries and quiet intimate gigs, but, like.. and? So? I'm just the same as everybody else like me! Do I feel the need to express my alternativism by blogging about pictures of cupcakes and typing every letter in capitals and putting random symbols and commenting about how I like tea? No. No I don't. I like tea because I like tea. Not because it's cool to a group of people to like tea. I am me for me, not for the benefit of other people.

And to be fair, it's not just Tumblr, it's Twitter, and even Facebook to an extent, let alone in real life! Why do we all feel the need to be so different, so unique? I don't understand.

Like, fair play, if you wanna stand out from the crowd, then you go for it! But, hey, here's a tip, do it in such a way you'll get noticed, stand out from the crowd of people trying so desperately to stand out from the crowd.

So, I'll stop Hipster-bashing now.. and I don't mean to offend anyone, but think people need to get a grasp of themselves. Now, by all means, I am more than aware that I don't have the right to judge people, or tell people how to live their lives, of this, I am more aware. But, this is my blog. This is my little corner of the internet where I can express my opinions. So, there you are.

The whole idea of individuality, the very nature of who one is, our identity is something continually challenged. Our opinions aren't set in stone. Who we are isn't set in stone, different people interpret who we are in different ways. You'll never be everyone's cup of tea (non-alternative bog-standard cup of tea at that, not hipster tea!), but, live your life for you. Ultimately, when all is said and done, we have to face whatever is beyond our life on our own, and if we've not done the living to prepare ourselves for that time, we can only blame one person, and that is ourselves.

Ooh, how very philosophical!

Despite the emergence of YOLO all over the place (You Only Live Once), I definitely subscribe to the mantra that life is for living.. there's no point in living if you don't feel alive.


Anyway, just to keep you updated, EASTER HOLIDAYS! Plenty of exciting things have happened for me already... of which I'll inform you of all soon I've no doubt :'D


Sunday, 1 April 2012

Day 304 - Splurge / The Illuminati


I don't know what this post will be about, but I intend to start writing and then write whatever it is that comes to mind. You should be aware too that whatever I write might be vague and censored as to what I feel I want people to know, but, I'll just go for it. I hope you manage to get to the end, but, who knows?

Well, I would do, but Jesus Christ, my computer is running dog-slow.

[Break - I realised I had no inspiration and decided I'd come back to this another time.]

OK I'm back. I've touched on my religious beliefs before in this blog. And it's a touchy subject, so, I won't go too far into it. But. Whatever religion someone stands for, the idea of extremism is one that really pisses me off. People who feel they have the moral authority to preach in such an extreme way, they feel they are superior to others. And it's not just over the big issues, people who feel they have the God-given right to preach over the most trivial things. I have one thing to say to you: Fuck You. 

I'm writing an acoustic cover of 'Crazy' by Gnarls Barkley at the moment (it's a lot more down-tempo and soulful.. I hope..!) And, as I'm listening to it on YouTube, I stumble across this comment: 
This entire song is about the Illuminati/Satan and how we go on with our lives without realizing that they are conspiring behind us. In the end of the Satan, he is dedicating his life to Satan like his "heroes" did.
Gnarls Barkey/Cee-lo green is an obvious satanist and is mocking you! Turn your life to Jesus! He is coming soon and things are gonna get really bad soon (as if it isn't already).
And I think.. Really?!
Are you serious?

So, I took a look at this YouTuber (The Unashamed Movement) and I read some of their other comments. 

On 'Dog Days are Over' by Florence+The Machine:
Read your bibles people! The horses are a reference to the 4 horsemen of apocalypse and dog days actually mean "god days". She is just another satanic artist blinding you from Jesus
On Coldplay, as a band:
 Google Coldplay Illuminati on google images and you'll see Chris Martin covering up his right eye which wouldn't mean anything at all if it wasn't a blatant gesture for someone who has works for Satan/Illuminati.
On Music in general:
I'm not here to listen to the music. I'm here to spread the truth and open someones eyes.You don't have to believe that they work for Satan/Illuminati but I think it's silly to just flat out dismiss without doing research on it. If you just put some time in and you'll see that A LOT of musicians worship Satan and hate Jesus. 
So, as if all this wasn't bad enough, you wanna know something EVEN MORE RIDICULOUS!?

People believe him.

On the comments on his page:

  •  Just want to say that God is thinking about you..enjoy your day!
  • God bless and be with you.
  • Thank you for the comment on my video. Let's keep spreading the truth. God bless.
So, religious fanatics.. I pity you. I pity you and your pathetic little excuse for an existence. 

If you are a religious person, and you believe in God, or whoever, I respect you. I have no problem, I am not anti-religious. I am anti-extremism. I am anti-religious extremism, I'm anti-atheism extremism, I'm anti-political extremism. 

Why can't we all just learn to live and let live?

Peace Out.<3

Saturday, 25 February 2012

Day 303 - Music

If there is anything so hotly debated and down to one's own individual tastes, it is that of music.

Music, is indeed universal. So, in an attempt to regain some ground, I thought I'd let you in on what I'm listening to, loving, hating, and so on.

First of all, and I think this is being due to my being a musician, I am bordering on obsession with music. It is such, that the first thing I do when I wake up and get dressed is listen to music, listen to music on my way to school, listen to music at school as and when I can, listen to music on my way home, listen to music at home while doing work, listen to music on my way to and from work, listen to music when making dinner when I do, listen to music when I get into bed, listen to music as I fall asleep and I often wake up in the middle of the night, still with my iPod playing. In between all of that, of course, I compose, perform and arrange music in the spare time I have. So, yes. I have a slight thing for music! In fact, my iPod passed the 3000 track mark the other day, of which, I've listen to them all at least once, with some having been listened to over 10,000 times. So, just in case you ever doubted my obsession, there you are!

So, what music IS on my iPod? Well, I'm quite proud to say that, I listen to music of nearly *all* types. I have 58 different genres of music on there, of which, there are 188 Artists and 282 albums. Now, I won't run you through them, all, but, you get the picture.

If I could describe my music taste in one word? Eclectic. I listen to different things as and when my mood feels like listening to it.

Classical Music. Yes, I'll be honest, I do listen to Classical Music, and am quite proud of doing so, I ususally listen to it when I'm working (writing essays or reading for example) and won't listen to it, say when I'm at the gym. But it does form quite a large bulk of the music on my iPod.

I suppose I can't escape the reaches of Pop Music, and do have a fair amount on my iPod! My most.. guilty pleasure would have to be Lady GaGa. I know, there will be hoards of you tutting and rolling your eyes, but, I must confess my love for her. I adore her and quite a lot of her music! Not all of it, I must be honest, but, yes. I do adore her! But, of the biggest mainstream pop artists there are, she's probably the only one who I'm a big fan of. I don't have a single track by Katy Perry or Rihanna for example, only the odd one or two from Pixie Lott, Florence + The Machine and Jessie J. There are a few others who I like, but that stems from music talent, and THAT is what I truly appreciate in music, talent.

Christina Aguilera, I know, not everyone's cup of tea, but there is no denying she has talent. Take a look at this live performance of 'This is a Man's World':

Other pop artists I listen to with, what I consider to be 'talent', would be Adele and Amy Winehouse, for example. But, I must confess, I actually prefer music that's a little more.. alternative to the mainstream.

By biggest example has to be Lana Del Rey. I first heard 'Video Games' when she released it on the internet early last year, and fell in love, and her new album 'Born to Die' certainly doesn't disappoint. It's an incredible album, and songs like 'Born to Die' and 'Radio' just, are masterpieces written by herself.

There is something just, in my opinion, so sublime about her voice and her music.

On the subject of alternative music, there are some artists out there, so underrated who really deserve more recognition!

One of these artists is 'Oh Land'. Now, their music is just, incredible. 'Sun of a Gun', as you can see below is sort of, mainstream enough but still alternative enough to be considered different.

On a similar note, Robyn, who's well known enough to be considered pop is also one of the most underrated artists I can think of, and, her track 'Call Your Girlfriend' is really quite stunning, but, also on that note, the video is eccentric but at the same time, delightfully simple:

Sticking with the theme of female alternative artists, Paloma Faith is another one of my favourite artists, and I must confess, I adore her! Her album 'Do You Want the Truth or Something Beautiful?' is one of my most listened to, and the track 'New York' is just, well, I think it's one of those tracks that you can't help but love!

But in case I'm beginning to bore you, I thought I'd move on to a new, and yet totally different type of music and that has to be Folk music. Now, I know that there are a lot of you who are likely to skip over this, because it's all a little bit, meh to a lot of people. But, I implore you, just take a listen. 

One of my favourite folk bands, a band I'm going to see in April(!!!) are 'Dark Dark Dark', from America. Their music is so special and quaint and quirky, it's, well, fantastic. Their song 'Daydreaming' is one of my favourites, the music video is below, as well as a live performance of another favourite, 'The Hand':

So, I'm mega excited to go see them up in London in April.

And, now to one of my greatest musical loves: Jazz.

There are so many elements of jazz in day to day music that people just, almost don't appreciate it as a standalone genre as much as they used to. My favourite Jazz artist, without a shadow of a doubt, has to be Nina Simone. She sang with so much soul and feeling and depth in her voice, that her music is so heart-wrenching but so powerful at the same time. Her entire repetoire is simply unparalleled, and below are just a few of my favourites.

But, there are the other jazz and soul legends such as Ella Fitzgerald and Etta James who will never be equaled:

Right, that's enough for one day, methinks. I didn't even get to mention the music delights of Einaudi, Aston, Birdy, Miss Li, Pink Floyd, Rob Douagn, Lia Ices, Bowerbirds, Woodkid, Royksopp, La Roux, St Vincent, Emiliana Torrini, Kate Havnevik, Delta Goodrem, Portishead, Maksim, Hannah Peel, Alice Gold, Frank Sinatra, Sia, Goldfrapp, Matt Dusk, Kate Bush, or 'Hurray for the Riff Raff'.

If you're looking for new music, I suggest some of them!

Coming up in the next few days will be a post on the music I hate, featuring One Direction and Justin Bieber.

Sorry for the long post, have a magical Saturday!


Friday, 24 February 2012

Day 302 - Welcome Back!

Yes, I know.

It's been far too long, but, I'm back. For as long as I can, at least, and probably not daily, but, hopefully regularly enough that I can write decent posts about things more than the trivial.

So, let's start with what's happened since last September.

Well, as you can imagine, quite a lot, quite a lot indeed. We've had heartbreak, heart-warming moments, death, birth, Christmas, My 18th, Friendships formed and lost, smiles, tears, music, film and theatre, birthdays, and so on and so on.

But enough about me! How are you?! I hope you're well.

I realised, the older I'm getting, the more bitter I'm getting. Not only bitter, but sort of, cynical. I think it's more cynicism than anything else. For example, whenever I watch the news, I seem to just despair at how unjust the world seems to be, I know, quite a miserable opening for the first blog post for a while!

Just a few examples recently, today on the news, retired businessman Christopher Tappin is to be extradited to the US for allegedly selling batteries to the Iranians for nuclear missiles. This man doesn't have a criminal record, British judges say that the extradition is legal and the European Court of Human Rights won't intervene in the extradition.

Meanwhile, Abu Qatada, once described as 'the right hand man for Al-Qaeda in Europe' was released a few days ago, and it was claimed he couldn't be deported as 'he wouldn't get to face a fair trial', whereas of course, Mr Tappin, with a chronically ill wife, is to stay in an unidentified US jail while Mr Qatada is freely roaming the streets of London. At a cost of £10,000 a week to the UK taxpayers.

I dunno, is it just me that thinks that this is.. well, wrong?

Something that made me chuckle this morning, is that the man who set fire to the Reeve's furniture shop in Croydon has admitted to arson today. So, what with teenagers bearing the brunt of the attack, and similar attacks across London, how old was he? Bearing in mind all the bad press that all these teenagers got, the broken society was in the youth, teenagers were responsible for the rioting! All these teenagers, they're all to blame! Oh, sorry, didn't I mention how old Gordon Thompson, the arsonist was? He was 33.

Not 13, not even 23, but 33. Twice the age of most of those accused of the rioting.


Joke's on you.

Anyway. I'll leave you all to your days.